AT WAR

I AM AT WAR SIMPLY TORN BETWEEN WHAT'S RIGHT AND WHAT'S WRONG HOW CAN I CARRY ON KNOWING MY BODY FEELS WEAK AND MY HEARTS NOT THAT STRONG BUT YET THE BATTLE GOES ON LIKE A NEVER ENDING ROAD NOTHING BUT BAGGAGE SUCH A HEAVY LOAD BUT YET THE BATTLE CONTINUES AND STILL RAGES ON SHOULD I WAVE MY FLAG OR STAND TALL AND COURAGEOUSLY BATTLE ON OR GIVE IN ADMITTING DEFEAT LET THIS THING TAKE OVER AND CALL IT A NIGHT NO IT MAYBE A BATTLE BUT WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT BE CAUSE THIS THING I FEEL IS BIGGER THAN ME MIGHT BE TINY COMPARED TO OTHER BATTLES I HAVE FACED IN THE PASS IT IS AND IT HAS BEEN A HAZY BATTLE AT TIME A CRAZY BATTLE FOR GOODNESS SAKE NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES NOW HOW MUCH MY HEART MAY BREAK OR MY FAITH MAY SHAKE I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT BREAK AMONG SO MANY MISTAKES I HAVE MADE AND WILL MAKE EVEN THOUGH ITS HARD TO GET THING STRAIGHT AND AT TIMES I GIVE MORE THAN I CAN TAKE AND SOME POINT IN MY LIFE ITS HARD TO BARE SO MANY THING GO WRONG AND I ACT LIKE I DON'T CARE AT ALL BUT WHEN I FALL I FALL WOMEN DOWN! I CAVE NOT KNOWING JUST WHAT HAVE DONE KNOWING THIS BATTLE I AM FIGHTING IS NOT YET WON AND BUT FEEL AT TIMES THAT MY HOPE IS GONE AND ONCE AGAIN I LOOK BACK ON WHO I'VE HURT AND WHAT WENT WRONG THE PEOPLE I HAVE HURT AND THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED AND WHAT I HAVE LOST AND AT WHAT COST ???.